Posts tagged ‘overcome’

April 13, 2013

Day 459: more. More! MORE!!!

I recently had a facebook message “conversation” with an old friend about my covenant. And well, there were just some parts of the message that I felt would be beneficial to share.

He is growing me so much through helping me overcome… such a journey. His message through me has so little to do with weight and food and so much more to do with me becoming less (in the spiritual) while He becomes more in my life.

It’s hard to understand often the horrible oppression I have felt from “just food” over the span of my life. A terrible, heavy burden‚Ķ unconquerable. I have so often identified with the bleeding woman‚Ķ nothing could release me from it save the touching of His garment, but up until the past year I had not the courage to reach out and touch.

But during the time I have been on my covenant journey with Him, I have found such a sweet freedom as I have never known in my life: freedom from that suffocating and all-encompassing burden. So, as simple as it might sound to just give up coffee or food, know that, for me, it is not just something neat, or fun, or even spiritually trendy… it is a battle. And for now, this is where I find myself on the journey.

Perhaps a lot of these words I’ve already said over the course of these 459 days, but I found it so… cathartic to say them yet again. To remind myself of the crushing feeling of despair. To remember the hopelessness each time I failed to be stronger than the pull of food. To refresh the pain of accepting that I was simply just “one of those people” that would struggle with food my whole life.

And cathartic to bring to light again the freedom that I have felt. the hopefulness. the salve over my aching and wounded heart. and the new identity that He has infused within me.

Because, here’s what’s cool… “we are more than conquerors through him who loved us” (Romans 8:37). And don’t just discount that phrase. For years, nay… for my. entire. life. I have read that word for word but my mind and heart have HEARD this:

“We are more than conquerors…”

Yeah. I just like knocked out two words of the verse mentally. “We are conquerors.” I mean… I was okay with that and all. Being a conqueror… that’d be, ya know, cool. I’d sorta picture myself on a mountain wearing Roman armor with a flag or something blowing the wind while I looked off at the horizon. Annnnnnd, that was about the end of that little (yes, weird) daydream. But look at it again the real way…

“We are more than conquerors…”

Think about that… more. we are MORE than just a conqueror! I mean, being a conqueror is pretty dang awesome, but yo… we are MORE. We don’t just win the battle… we go beyond that! I’m so encouraged by knowing that simple thing. Even if tomorrow He healed me permanently of this sin of gluttony… if tomorrow I was officially a conqueror over gluttony… that’s not the end-all be-all. I am MORE than just a conqueror!

I… I… I don’t even know what that would make me… I don’t even know what is “more than conqueror”, but hey… the thought of being simply a conqueror is so enticing, I can only imagine how amazing it will be to find out what the job is on the next rung of the old spiritual career ladder!

Which leads me to paste in the very end of my conversation with my friend:

I know, so much more keenly now, that God has called me to much more than just salvation… that was just a pinpoint in my life. Now I am to find my purpose in His Kingdom so that I might be a blessing to the world.

And THAT. that is what it means to be more. Because THAT is really and truly THE call of a follower of God. That through us, through the promise to Abraham, that through us all families on earth with be blessed (Genesis 12:3).

Ya know. That makes me want to be over and done with this gluttony stuff. It makes me ready to move on to being a conqueror. It makes me ready to be MORE.

{This was the closest thing that I could think of to a time in my life
where I felt like my dream of being a conqueror…
I had hiked (in flip flops, mind you)
through this dense rainforest in Costa Rica
when on my Spanish immersion summer,
and we ended up at this natural waterfall. It was… uh.maz.ing.}

Costa Rica Waterfall

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February 10, 2012

Day Thirty-One: Fading Like Philistines

It’s really interesting how “losing” can impact my momentum. And I’m not talking about losing weight either… that pretty much always gets me pumped. But, what I’m talking about is the concept of one step forward, two steps back. Like, yesterday, when I posted about eating several granola bars. It might not have been a big deal but when you add up several “little battles” that I lose, then it just sorta… gets ya down.

And my mind sorta jumps to the Philistines here…

They were pretty much Israel’s biggest enemy throughout the lives of the patriarchs, the judges, and the kings of Israel. There are countless battles with the Philistines… some Israel would win. Some Israel would lose.

But… I think that the message comes from the fact that now… they are gone. Sure, some people think that the Palestinians are maybe somewhat distantly related to the Philistines, but hey… we are all somewhat distantly related to everyone. There just doesn’t seem to be enough (from what I’ve read) that really supports that the Philistines are still around as a people group.

And I think that I can learn from that…

In my life, I will have little battles that I lose (like the granola bar incident a few days ago), and I will have little battles that I win (like when I didn’t eat the brownies I made for a friend). I will also have triumphs that will only happen after disaster like that of Samson and the Philistines. I will have triumphs that happen so that the Glory of God might be evident to everyone, like when David defeated Goliath.

But I am reminded

“Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.‚ÄĚ John 16:33

In the end, despite both large and small battles lost, the Philistines faded into the past.

In the end, despite both large and small battles lost, my addiction will fade into the past.

And I am going to be encouraged, because God has overcome the world! And if he has overcome the world… then my little addiction is easy breezy for him to squash.

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