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January 31, 2013

Day 387: Sick And Fried

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One of the worst places to get sick… is on vacation.

And one of the worst reasons to get sick on vacation is cause you ate something not-so-good for you.

And how do I know this? Experience, my friends. Personal and recent experience.

We went to the Bubba Gump Shrimp restaurant one day during our workcation in Anaheim (we chose it mainly because I still wasn’t eating meat and because it was close… not sure I would have chosen this on any normal day). We were so hungry that we decided to really get a lot of food…

Yeahhhhhh, that was not such a good idea.

Fried calamari.
Crab and Shrimp Bisque.
Fish and Chips.

On top of this, I’d had pretty much zero water all day so I think I was a little dehydrated. Regardless, I stopped eating my fish. And about five minutes later I had to run to the restroom to do a little “praying” to the toilet gods while my husband waited for me outside. He then had to pretty much support me on the walk home and then I had to speed up our visit to the 7-Eleven for some gatorades.

Once we got back to the hotel, I still felt icky so I just collapsed into bed.

And had a bit of a “Come To Jesus” about fried foods.

Now remember, I’m not a nutritionist. In fact, the “science” of nutrition is almost entirely ignored by me. It just changes so frequently. (e.g. Eggs were terrible for you,then they were good for you. Avocados were fattening and now they are necessary. Baked potato peels were of the devil and now they are crucial.) So, I’m not going to be able to delineate for you WHY nutritionists say that fried food is bad for you, but I do know that eating a lot of fried foods makes me sick. And if it makes me sick, then it’s probably not good for me.

Cause yeah, this is not the first time that fried food has made me sick.

Fried chicken (like as in KFC kind)… I lovvvvve it. But it makes me siiiiiiiiiick.
Fish and chips… lovvvvvvvve it. But it makes me siiiiiiiick.
Fish tempura… lovvvvvvve it. But, yep, you guessed it… it makes me siiiiiiick.

I think it must be the super greasy type of stuff.

But, ya know… I’m kind of amazed that it has taken me so many times of being sick to accept the fact that it’s just not for me. So weird to think that I would allow my tastebuds to override my stomach. It’s like the mental connector dealies that are connected to my tastebuds must be much stronger than the connectors that work with my stomach.

I know that I reference the verse a lot, but I think about the verse in Proverbs 26:11 that says a dog that returns to its vomit is like a person who repeats something stupid or foolish…

…like, ya know, getting sick everytime you eat something insanely greasy and then… eating stuff that is insanely greasy again. It’s like the famous Forrest Gump phrase, “Stupid is as stupid does.”

And I know that the Law that God made regarding food was in our best interest; however, it doesn’t say anywhere “Thou shalt not eat greasy chicken from KFC”. But I was just reading this verse and I think it relates here:

Hold on to the pattern of wholesome teaching you learned from me—a pattern shaped by the faith and love that you have in Christ Jesus. 2 Timothy 1:13

So even though I know that the Bible never explicitly forbids fried chicken, I do know that the Bible tells me to honor my body, to run from sin, to throw off anything that holds me back. And if I am to “hold on to the pattern of this wholesome teaching” then the pattern would tell me that if fried chicken is hurting my body (my temple) to do away with it.

The same with gluttony. with sugar. with not sleeping well. with inactivity.

I don’t like saying all these things to myself because it convicts me and then I know that I am required to change. But, I know that the “changed me” several months down the road will be very proud of the “eats fried foods me” that is looking to change.

December 21, 2012

Day 346: Weight Loss Math

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So I’ve never really been “good” at losing weight nor at math. This year, however, God has worked a miracle and enabled me to lose weight.

However, I’m not sure even a miracle could heal me of my mathematical inadequacies.

But I do enjoy the whole word equation thing… it’s like 97% words and 2% math.

(Haha- did you get my little math humor right there?)

So, here is your word-math equation of the day.

Not Full ≠ Hungry

Yep. Crazy awesome math there, eh?

But it’s a recent “revelation” that I’ve had. I was sitting on my couch with my son and I was like “Hmmmm, I’m hungry… I should get something to eat.” And immediately I started going through some of my excuses to eat something other than fruit (like I talked about yesterday)… today’s was the one “Oh well, I ate breakfast like half-an-hour ago {mind you, for one thing, I thought this without actually looking at the clock to confirm it had been 30 minutes} so this could still count as breakfast.

But luckily, because I “confessed”, in the form of my blog post, those thoughts yesterday and re-read that “confession” again this morning, I was ready. I knew that those were lies. tricks. deceptions.

So, as I thought through my “hunger pains”… I sorta realized, “Wait. I’m not really hungry. I’m just not… full.

And that’s when I came to my word-math equation…

Being “not full” does not necessarily equal being hungry. I mean… just because I’m not stuffed to the brim having to put on PJ pants just to be comfortable does not mean that I need to go have a snack. There are several “stages” of my belly volume:

  • empty/hungry
  • “aware” of my stomach
  • satiated
  • full
  • stuffed

And so you see there is a land between hungry and satiated. You know… that part of the morning where it’s no longer breakfast but it’s not lunch time either. (Ya know, right about the time McDonald’s closes its breakfast line when you are on a road trip.) And you’re starting to feel a little hungry but you aren’t quite salivating yet or dreaming and planning of what you’re gonna eat.

Well, actually… sometimes I still dream and plan what I’m gonna eat for lunch or dinner. Not nearly as much as I used to, but it does still happen.

Anyway, my whole point was reminding myself that just because I am aware of my stomach doesn’t mean I need to run to the fridge to get something. I like Gwen Shamblin’s (yes, I know some people think she’s crazy, but I do like this) idea to wait for 15 minutes and see if you are still hungry before having a snack. Oftentimes this will reveal true-hunger or circumstance-hunger (like boredom, stress, procrastination, etc).

    A person who is full refuses honey, but even bitter food tastes sweet to the hungry. Proverbs 27:7
December 20, 2012

Day 345: Choice Foods

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Ya know, it’s one thing for me to say “I’m only gonna eat fruit for snacks from now on.” But it’s another thing entirely for me to actually eat only fruit for snacks.

Cause when it comes down to it- I have to choose fruit instead of a Doritos. I even have to choose fruit over “healthy” things like granola. (Cause even granola isn’t healthy if I’m eating it when I’m not hungry, or eating too much of it.)

And the choice part is where I tend to make-it or break-it. I can hear the rationalizations in my head (well, I can hear them after the fact, at least):

    • Ohhhhh, it’s just one.
    • I’m in too much of a hurry.
    • These taste so much better than fruit.
    • This isn’t really a snack, per se, it is sorta like part of my lunch since I only ate, like, 30 minutes ago.

So I was looking into choice-making in scripture and here are a few that I found.

Here’s one that is ever-important to read, but it certainly cuts right to the point…

    There is a path before each person that seems right, but it ends in death. Proverbs 14:12

And those Doritos… well, they sure do seeeeeem right. But, well, they will end in death. They will. As much as I hate to admit that to myself… they are bad for my body. bad for my temple. and bad for my relationship with God.

Then there’s the tried and true “fork in the road” verses…

    “You can enter God’s Kingdom only through the narrow gate. The highway to hell is broad, and its gate is wide for the many who choose that way. But the gateway to life is very narrow and the road is difficult, and only a few ever find it. Matthew 7:13

And I know these verses are not “about” dieting per se, but the concept is similar. It is sooooo muchhhhh easier to eat Doritos instead of a clementine. But, I want to go through the gateway to LIFE… but it is difficult sometimes. But… I read that again… the. gateway. to. life. What is a Doritos chip compared with that?!?!

And I love/hate these verses. Another in-yo’-face scripture about choosing right.

    Don’t be misled—you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plant. Those who live only to satisfy their own sinful nature will harvest decay and death from that sinful nature. But those who live to please the Spirit will harvest everlasting life from the Spirit. So let’s not get tired of doing what is good. At just the right time we will reap a harvest of blessing if we don’t give up. Galatians 6:7-9

And then my favorite to end with… about choosing what to think about…

    And now, dear brothers and sisters, one final thing. Fix your thoughts on what is true, and honorable, and right, and pure, and lovely, and admirable. Think about things that are excellent and worthy of praise. Philippians 4:8
December 18, 2012

Day 343: Fruit Snacks

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So, I have decided to eat only fruit for snacks.

You might remember that a while back I did a “sans-snacky” thing for a couple of weeks where I fasted from snacking.

Yeah… that was hard. And I kind of realized afterward that although it showed me A LOT of how much I was snacking I realized that there are a lot of days where I still need a snack. Especially with my go-go-go life (thanks to having an active toddler!) I oftentimes don’t get to eat complete meals and so snacking can fill in those hunger gaps for me.

But when it’s notttttt so good for me is when I am choosing to eat junk as my snack.

Chips. Tortillas. Saltines. You name it… those suckers always come back to haunt me. But, here is what I have noticed over the past few days (and yes, I’m SURE that I noticed this a gazillion days ago too, but, like I said, it’s like I have to learn some of these concepts (the hard way) like five or six times before they break through the habit that is already ingrained)… I have noticed that I have this little mental conversation going on:

Jesus Me: Ooooo, I’m hungry. I need a snack.

Earthly Me: Hmmmm, I think I’ll snag a handful of those Nacho Cheese Doritos!

Jesus Me: Oh, but wait… remember, only fruit for snacks.

Earthly Me: Ehhhhh, I’m not hungry anyway.

And often… I’m not hungry. I’m just eating… because! So, this allows me to really gauge if I’m eating to fulfill some other need or to fulfill hunger: “Okay, I’m flipping ravenous… I’m going to eat a clementine… or a banana… or grapes.”

And all of this refocus reminds me of this verse:

    Do not love this world nor the things it offers you {like Nacho Cheese Doritos}, for when you love the world, you do not have the love of the Father in you. For the world offers only a craving for physical pleasure, a craving for everything we see, and pride in our achievements and possessions. These are not from the Father, but are from this world. And this world is fading away, along with everything that people crave. But anyone who does what pleases God will live forever. 1 John 2:15-17
October 16, 2012

Day 280: The Skinny Rules Vs. The Covenant Rules

I’m pretty much like every other woman in America right now… I love pinterest. Sure I only try, like mayyyyyyybe once a month, one of the “activities” that I have pinned unlike some of those super-women out there, but there have been a few things that I have found and liked (or other have liked them for me)… snickerdoodle muffins, s’mores cake, the entire style/polyvore thing since I am a complete novice at all things fashion, a couple of toddler and preschooler activities, and my favorite transformation was learning (finally) how to fold fitted sheets so they weren’t just a lump of sheet fabric.

And recently a lot of women were posting about these “Skinny Rules”. Not having cable and pretty much never getting to go to a bookstore anymore (unless I make a beeline with my children for the children’s section), I had not even remotely heard of this book (heck, maybe no one did until pinterest).

But I am intrigued a bit by the skinny-girl mindset versus my own, so I took a look.

Honestly… I sorta checked out around RULE 5… probably cause it had numbers in it.

And it just proved to me how perfect this covenant is for me… cause there are so. few. rules. involved in what I eat. Not that I don’t like rules, but it’s just that I can’t REMEMBER all of those rules whatshisface came up with. Like, here are “The Covenant Rules” for me:

RULE 1: Honor God with the way you eat, what you eat, and how much you eat.

RULE 2: Eat when you are hungry.

RULE 3: Don’t eat when you are not hungry.

RULE 4: Eat food as close to the way it was when it was “ripe” as often as possible.

And really… that is it.

RULE 1 sorta covers it all. It is the breaking away from gluttony, breaking away from foods that even we know are “bad” for us, and breaking away from emotional eating, procrastination eating, frustration eating, boredom eating and the like.

RULES 2 and 3 sorta encompass most of the “diet” part of it… notice that it’s not as much about WHAT food as it is about the APPROACH to food. Food is there solely for sustenance… eat when the body needs food. End of story.

And the last one, RULE 4, is one that I have just sorta discovered on my own through Daniel Fasting. I am the most fulfilled and the least tempted when I am eating on a Daniel-Fast… and really, so much of that is just eating the “foods of the earth” instead of the “foods of the factory”. It means that if I can eat a raw apple instead of a baked apple, I’ll do that. If I can eat a raw carrot instead of stewed carrots then I do that. If I can eat raisins instead of a granola bar then I do that. If I can make my own pasta instead of eating the processed pasta, then I do that. No, at this point in my life (and with how amateur of a cook I am) I cannot do this with everything but it is a goal… because I do think that eating foods the way that God packaged them and prepared them and portioned them is probably the best way to eat simply because it’s as close to the way God intended for that food to be consumed as possible.

(By the way, a quick note: I’m not at all saying that the Skinny Rules above are bad, I’m just saying that, for me, there are a lot of them and I have “broken” about half of them and lost weight!)

August 28, 2012

Day 231: No Time To Eat

A lot of the past 8 months has been spent thinking about fasting. thinking about not eating food. thinking about denying myself. thinking about God changing me.

But I recently reread this bit of scripture and it has been sticking with me:

“No, this is the kind of fasting I want: Free those who are wrongly imprisoned; lighten the burden of those who work for you. Let the oppressed go free, and remove the chains that bind people. Share your food with the hungry, and give shelter to the homeless. Give clothes to those who need them, and do not hide from relatives who need your help.

“Then your salvation will come like the dawn, and your wounds will quickly heal. Your godliness will lead you forward, and the glory of the Lord will protect you from behind. Then when you call, the Lord will answer. `Yes, I am here,’ he will quickly reply.

“Remove the heavy yoke of oppression. Stop pointing your finger and spreading vicious rumors! Feed the hungry, and help those in trouble. Then your light will shine out from the darkness, and the darkness around you will be as bright as noon. Isaiah 58:6-10

I wonder if a little more of THIS kind of fasting is what I need. Ha- probably because if I was working on doing all of that, I wouldn’t even have time to eat!!!

June 4, 2012

Day 146: Candy Corn

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This is another example of when something that I learned, well, almost one-hundred days ago has come back around and I have learned the same lesson… again. Back on day forty-eight, I had a moment where I was choosing between what was good and what was best. And tonight, I had a similar moment.

I’ve been sick, and preparing good food for myself is not at the top of my list when I’m sick. Easy food… that is pretty much my criteria. Well, we didn’t have any leftovers that were on my covenant, and I was hungry and wanting something terrifically easy.

I looked… no, I glanced… through the fridge and didn’t see anything (I don’t think that I really wanted to see anything), and I thought to myself, “Well, I guess I’ll just have to eat a peanut butter and honey sandwich.”

But luckily, a verse that I found in college… and I wrote it on a big poster board and tacked it to the ceiling so that I would look at it when I laid in bed… came to my mind:

Whether you turn to the right or to the left, your ears will hear a voice behind you, saying, “This is the way; walk in it.” Isaiah 30:21

I knew that I needed to look back in the fridge.

And sure enough, there was a bunch of leftover grilled corn (which might as well be candy, in my opinion… it’s soooooo good). So, that’s what I ate. And it was good. And I was totally satisfied. And I was completely blessed.

May 26, 2012

Day 137: Sushi Struggle

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For my “birthing day” treat (a tradition that my husband’s family does to honor the mother that delivered the baby on each birthday), my husband got some sushi for me for lunch. I love sushi but I can never justify going to get it and we never tend to go out to eat and get it. I often tell him to go with his buddies to the sushi buffet instead of on date night with me because it is such a rip off for me to go… I never eat enough to make it worth all the money!

Anyway, I ate a little bit of it at lunch that day and it was yummmmmay! But I have learned that sushi makes me very full, very fast… so I can’t eat a lot of it. Luckily, I didn’t eat a lot of it that day.

Later that evening after the birthday party, I was pretty tired and I really didn’t want to do the dishes or pick up, so I sorta defaulted back to my old “stall” technique and I went and got out the leftover sushi to finish. I sorta rationalized it to myself by saying that I hadn’t gotten to really eat any dinner because none of it was on my covenant (which I talked about here), but when it came down to it, I knew that I wasn’t really that hungry.

Of course, then commenced a little internal battle… but luckily, those verses popped back into my mind that have helped me to honor God with self-control over and over again. They are probably some of the most important verses anyone needs to know for the covenant.

“I am allowed to do anything”—but not everything is beneficial. 1 Corinthians 10:23

So whether you eat or drink or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God. 1 Corinthians 10:31

And I know that I keep bringing them up, but I keep bringing them up because the Holy Spirit keeps bringing them to my mind. And those two verses keep helping me to make the right choices on this covenant. Because I want to honor God. I want for Him to receive glory… and I think that He does through my weight loss and through my telling people about how I’m losing weight because of Him.

April 27, 2012

Day 108: Healing Struggler

I went to a teacher’s conference at St. Mark’s School of Texas today (a brilliant place… we would love to send Pasco there, but we are…… ohhhhh about $25,000 short! Haha!). My English-teacher mentor Lynne Weber is there and even though I’m not in the classroom I still love to go. I left the day feeling revitalized and focused on how to help my boys reach their potential!

Okay but that has naught to do with food! But I did have a great moment there at lunch. I got their baked salmon and cauliflower along with a salad with blue cheese dressing and a cold broccoli salad. I wasn’t terribly hungry but being at a conference where you never really know when you might get struck down with hunger or when you’ll get to eat again, I usually would have eaten everything on my plate.

But I didn’t! I left 1/4 of the salmon there and some of the cauliflower. I did eat all of the cold broccoli salad cause it was delish! And I left quite a bit of my salad too. It was just a nice day to see myself not have to eat. I felt like a size 00 girl even though I’m still rollin in my size 12s.

And ya know. It just makes me think. Yesterday I was posting asking for prayer because of my struggles. Today I post because of happiness of a mind renewal having occurred.

A truth that I have to remember is that sometimes the changes in my life are not necessarily smooth. There are sometimes steps back. Sometimes steps forward. Somedays I am healed in my mind and heart. Some days I’m still a struggler.

On the days of struggle, I simply must remember this:

Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised. Hebrews 10:36

March 21, 2012

Day Seventy-One: Better Than Sliced Bread

On Sunday, our pastor presented a really great message about how we tend to create our own Jesus… he called it our own American Jesus. And he also said that we oftentimes read more of what Paul has to say than what Jesus said in the gospels. I guess I kind of think that Jesus said all of it (through Paul… through Moses… through all of the authors), but I totally see his point. And he’s right… I often to turn to Romans and keep on going right when I am looking for guidance.

And as he went through what the gospels say about Jesus, he mentioned John 6:35…

Jesus replied, “I am the bread of life. Whoever comes to me will never be hungry again. Whoever believes in me will never be thirsty. John 6:35

I wrote it down and put a star next to it. Why? Because it had the word “bread” in it! haha! I’m just always on the look out for times that the Bible talks about food. And for some reason I had not yet thought about this verse. I guess it’s for… today.

Anyway, so like usual, I went through and looked at the rest of the chapter because oftentimes it is just as enlightening as “the” verse that I originally went to look at. And here is another verse in the same conversation that grabbed my attention…

But don’t be so concerned about perishable things like food. Spend your energy seeking the eternal life that the Son of Man can give you. John 6:27

And I realized when I read that why some of my posts have started to lean away from food into just a regular ol Jesus devotional. Sometimes, I re-read an entry before posting and realize that it has absolutely nothing at all to do with food, or breaking addictions, or anything of the sort. I have to back track and remember what in my experience led me to discover that particular verse.

And that is spot-on what I want to happen!

The more and more that I start to turn my focus away from “perishable things like food” and onto “the eternal life that the Son of Man can give me”… the more and more that I find myself forgetting about the food and thinking only of the awesomeness of Christ.

And anyway… He says that whoever believes in Him will never be hungry again.

And that is wayyyyyyyyy better than sliced bread!

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